My Gravitational Pull


It’s been a while and I apologize. My last post was entered in May and time just slipped through my fingers. Or line I should say.. line slipping through.

Not only have I learned a lot about surf fishing, marine biology, the history of the area and night sky (yes) I have grown to understand life more.

I’ve learned to forgive and have patience with myself on the water.

This journey, our journey each day gives us a chance to  make it right, safe,  and embrace what sets our souls on fire.

Try not to ever let anyone or thing take that away from you. ♥

JUNE 2015


I am overflowing with words I do not have.”
— Adam Falkner




JULY 2015

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“No one has it all figured out, especially not the people who are acting like they do and judging you because of it. Pretending to be something you aren’t because you’re trying to please a bunch of judgmental hypocrites and shitheads is not the way to be happy. Living the life you want to live is. It really is that simple.”-TM







It is a basic human need that everyone wants to live a happy life. For this, one has to experience real happiness.
The so-called happiness that one experiences by having money, power, and indulging in sensual pleasures is not real happiness.
It is very fragile, unstable and fleeting.
For real happiness, for lasting stable happiness,
one has to make a journey deep within oneself and get rid of all the unhappiness stored in the deeper levels of the mind.
As long as there is misery at the depth of the mind all attempts to feel happy at the surface level of the mind prove futile.-S.N. Goenka
As long as I live, I’ll hear waterfalls and birds and winds sing. I’ll interpret the rocks, learn the language of flood, storm, and the avalanche. I’ll acquaint myself with the glaciers and wild gardens, and get as near the heart of the world as I can. –  John Muir
You never know when a few sincere words can have an impact on a life. – Zig Ziglar
Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or starve it away or walk it away or punch it away or even therapy it away. It’s just there, and you have to survive it. You have to endure it. You have to live through it and love it and move on and be better for it and run as far as you can in the direction of your best and happiest dreams across the bridge that was built by your own desire to heal.-Cheryl Strayed
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Troubles that may come and go
but good times they’re the gold.

Opposing Winds

 “Sometimes it’s the same moments that take your breath away that breathe purpose and love back into your life.”  Steve Maraboli






























 “My dear,
In the midst of hate, I found there was, within me, an invincible love.
In the midst of tears, I found there was, within me, an invincible smile.
In the midst of chaos, I found there was, within me, an invincible calm.
I realized, through it all, that…
In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.
And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger – something better, pushing right back.

Truly yours,
Albert Camus”



It seems like the closer I get to stringing a bunch of insanely good moments together the quieter I become. Maybe it’s the peace that rests within after years of living in fear and pain. The next step is a big one and I am not sure how it will be received. I feel like it’s important to pay it forward now …. time. The idea started not long ago and was greatly received by someone who filled their days as a quiet hero to many not only as her profession but way of life.  She believed in me and this idea when I no longer believed in myself. She understood that I had to wait until I got to where I am to do what is next on the journey. She lost her battle with cancer recently quickly… not months, weeks. She left behind a legacy besides being a wonderful wife, mother, daughter. There are people who you encounter that change you, help you, protect you… she truly was a saint among us. Many of us were blessed to call her our friend and she will be greatly missed.

Lots of lessons this past year, not all fishing. Humanity, truth, healing  and compassion. I am the sum of my experiences humbled by the ocean. The vastness of the shores that reach beyond my vision compel me to do something worthy. To live up our potential of why we are all here. To not just exists in the safety of silence but to whisper to others “keep hope alive”.

Fishing didn’t just save me… it sustained me and continues to. This blog helped me to connect with some really brilliant and successful people in the fishing community.  I will take the words and give them a voice.

Next chapter.




Snap The Clip




That sound set the tone for mayhem to take place again recently. Reeling in all the other lines and working the fish to the boat.

Making some memories.

It’s Tuna time and since my move it’s tuna time all the time last couple months. But it’s also been learning time. Learning the correct way to do things from reading the water, identifying species, actively participating in running of a boat and rigging my own gear. With that being said I would like to share a link from my friends over at USiA   and the IMPORTANCE of knowing some basic information that could save your life/crew or your captains. It’s titled What if You Were Suddenly in Command? It’s easy to get caught up in the excitement of being out there. But a responsible Captain will always be sure to have a well-informed crew, radios on, up to date safety gear and legitimate float plan.  The Boaters safety course is another thing for your crew to attend.

My evenings have been filled with wonder. I feel like everyday is lesson full of  hands on material. I find myself packing the bird book with the surf gear and camera. Getting  into some areas when the tide is out that are a little slice of heaven.

The last couple weeks the   juvenile Osprey have become quite vocal. At the first sign of light I hear them outside calling for fish to be dropped in the nest. It’s been great watching them grow daily. The bird that has my attention the most has been the Black Skimmer. To see them glide the shoreline at sunset, beak open, in unison with others is a beautiful dance on the water. The Common Turns and Least all have chicks that sit on the beach and wait to have food dropped into their open beaks. The have no fear and will come sit right beside you and cry while waiting.

The ocean has given up many of it treasures along the shorelines and I always find myself putting something in my pocket. Some not though and I take a picture and research as much as I can about it.





It was no surprise to see so many Lions Mane Jelly fish last week with the water temperatures as low as they were from the upwelling.









Just last week fluke fishing out on the ocean we saw the water filled with jelly fish and a week later they were all over the beach.

Comb jellies are named for their unique feature: plates of giant fused cilia, known as combs, which run in eight rows up and down their bodies. The combs act like tiny oars, propelling the comb jelly through the water. Many microscopic organisms, such as bacteria, also use cilia to swim—but comb jellies are the largest known animals to do so. The comb-rows often produce a rainbow effect. This is not bioluminescence, but occurs when light is scattered in different directions by the moving cilia.

Many comb jellies have a single pair of tentacles (often each tentacle is branched, giving the illusion of many tentacles) that they use like fishing lines to catch prey. They are armed with sticky cells (colloblasts) and unlike jellyfish, the tentacles of comb jellies don’t sting.




We are all born with particular dispositions–likes, dislikes, talents, etc. We move towards certain things and away from others, and those preferences–and our response to them– determine our fate. – Sara Eckel


Sometimes I get so excited about all this I want to take everyone by the hand and show them.. these simply things that can bring so much happiness into your life that are happening all around us.  Conversations with friends lately about how wonderfully simple nature is. Which leads to conversation of getting to this place in life of surrounding yourself with whatever and whoever brings you peace and happiness. That those things will only contribute to an already happy you. I don’t know what the answers are .. I know I was laying on the dock looking up at the super moon a while back and no one was around. It was so quiet and yet I could hear fish jumping….the shore grass rustling… and looking up at all those stars I felt like the universe  just gives you the greatest hugs sometimes. I am grateful.




It’s alright

I might write a lot here.

I just spent the last two weeks sifting through my past. Boxes, art, letters, photo’s, memories.  All these fish I have seen, landed, saw swim away. People who have come into my life how they enrich it, change me, constantly give new perspective.

Some inspire and some different from me and the way I look at life. Distance.

For some reason this thinking always starts this time of year, maybe it’s the approach of the holidays and the winding down of summer. It just makes me take inventory of what I am doing wrong and what I want to do right. Ultimately I am the one that will do the adjusting and make changes as I see to balance life. What’s the saying – “Know your own happiness.”

Doing all this made me realize how important it is to meet your basic needs.  The ones that fuel you.  The needs you have that complete you as a person.

Thinking about all this I set off on a hike the last 1 1/2 in the pouring rain and have never felt so refreshed. Whenever I have something deep to contemplate it seems like the trails are always there, welcoming me to find myself again. It smelled incredible, it sounded soothing. I took a moment to stop in the middle and close my eyes and remember it. It’s that place by our-self when we must be nothing but completely honest about where we are in life.

My soul is forever restless for nature. Never satisfied to spend too much time indoors, as I feel so connected to the world. Among sand, sea, trees, mountains and streams is the place I call home.  When I am too long without it I feel a sense of loss.  Silence is better than bullshit. It’s a slap in the face and wakes your ass up again. Start living, dreaming, wanting. Feed your core self as you see fit.

For me it’s always been making sure everyone is ok. But what good am I to anyone if I am not obliging myself in the most meaningful things in life that fill us up, sustain us…… make us dream , live, embrace……

Whoever undertakes to set himself up as a judge of Truth and Knowledge is shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods.

-Albert Einstein

* all pic’s property of FWG

Just because there are reasons to be discouraged doesn’t mean you must be discouraged. Choose to live with joy, and with your life you will create plenty of reasons to be joyful.

Whatever your situation may be, you never have to see it as a burden. Decide to see it as an opportunity, and it will be.

If you live with the assumption that you’re stuck where you are, the experience of your life will indeed prove that assumption correct. Yet it is an assumption you never have to make.

Expect, without the slightest doubt, to move confidently forward, and you will. Live with the assumption that there’s a way to get beyond every obstacle, and you will most certainly find your way.

The quality of your life depends on the way you choose, in each and every moment, to see and relate to life. The person you choose to be, the attitude you choose to maintain and the expectations you choose to live with ultimately come from you, not from outside factors.

Choose joy, and meaning and purpose, love, fulfillment, sincerity and truth. Be relentlessly positive, and no matter what else happens, you’ll live a positive life.

— Ralph Marston

“Trust your heart if the seas catch fire

live by love though the stars walk backward.”  _ E E Cummings

I found out just 2 days before … I was going on my first over night to the Canyons. EXCITED ! Could not sleep excited. As I have posted before my trips have been day trolls to the canyons on a 23′ Regulator CC and I absolutely love it.

We arrived at the boat (35′ Henriques Express) at 10 am ready to load her up and get on our way.

There is much anticipation and talk of varieties of fish before leaving with endless possibilities. Inside all I kept thinking was …. I am going to be able to get to see something everyone has told me about and only hoped to see some day. The stars. I know silly, but the fish come after that. That night sky is what you look up to and make a wish and give thanks for ever little wonderful thing on your life. Because it humbles me and makes me feel blessed to be able to experience such a wonder standing on a deck on the ocean. It’s hard to even put into words.

After lowering outriggers to get under the bridge we were on our way out of the GE Inlet. The ride out was beautiful and we reached our first destination. We set up a troll and were on the look out for knock downs from YFT, BFT, Mahi, Marlin and who ever else was hungry. The spread consisted of spreader bars, green machines, a bird, and ballys with islanders. The water was a SPECTACULAR color with a temp of 71-73. Within a short time we passed a pot and out jumped a bunch of mahi, 2/2 hook up just a short stop and we were on our way again.

I climbed up to the top to get a better look  at life and was captivated by what I saw. So much so I stayed up there for hours. All around during the troll as far as I could see was life.

We made our way through Lindenkol and Carteret Canyons and continued to troll.

As the night approached and the sun set my mind and heart-felt satisfied and content with what I had seen and I was sincerely happy. The day was not completely done for me though because next I was able to witness a sunset never to be forgotten.  Colors like this can never be recreated exactly only blended to give each person lucky enough to experience it a show all for themselves. If you have been there you know what I am talking about. If your passion runs deep you can’t stop looking… for fear  the sun will slip away without you witnessing it slip to the edge of vision.

As we secured a place on the water that night a smorgasbord of goodies were set out for shark,  swords received… squids and disco lights, light stick in the water… the moon lite the sky and the stars looked close enough to touch. If I close my eye I can still see them, remember exactly what it felt like that night. As everyone made their way to sleep I could not, I did not want to miss a thing.

I have met few people who really understand this feeling and love for offshore. It takes you some place so pure so full of grace wrapped up in beauty and life. Makes you feel like you are part of something beautiful, fills your heart,  always… it’s always going to be there waiting for you, to embrace you. It leaves you wanting …

Next morning we did get to troll  and we picked up few more mahi. It was a great trip and I and truly thankful I had the chance to go and see and experience it.

“la vita è bella”

Getting ready to roll in the deep.

Discovery made it up and down, for that I am grateful. The space program has always humbled me. I often think if I did it over again I would have wanted to be an astronaut. When I was growing up it was something likened to being a hero of some kind, sadly that has been really lost in out culture now. Outside of living in Florida people do not talk about shuttle launches, landings, the space program etc…  and get excited. When I encounter someone who shares my space geekorey  it’s usually leads to a conversation of wonder.

Perhaps this may be the meaning of the euphoria I experience when Offshore. How small we are, how vast and curious the ocean is, the depth, the wonder the mysteries. When heading out in the night sky, witnessing shooting stars, the incredible false dawns, life in the ocean, the quiet.…. I always want to stay longer each time. I feel safe there, happy, and free.

Today my thoughts and prayers are in Japan, for those safe, for those lost/separated from love ones, and for those who have passed away. I cannot wrap my mind around the courage the people there will need to get through such a tragic event. I keep them in my heart and prayers.


Last weekend I had the pleasure to attend a seminar at Tournament Cable @ their shop in Cape May, NJ. It was a hands on experience offered by Chuck Richardson.

The day was full of valuable information for the offshore Fishermen.  Some topics covered where : Tips and guidelines for constructing and fishing wind-on leaders, Bait rigging (circle hooks also), Tuna Trap rigging, and making windons.

We are fortunate to be able to have links to most of what Chuck presented and can be found here, in video form, complete instructions:

I would also like to mention Kelly from Tournament Cable. Probably one of the most knowledgeable ladies in the fishing industry I have ever met. She is helpful, enthusiastic and really goes out of the way to explain the simplicity and versatility of their products. To top it off she likes talking fishing. A short product review had me absolutely sold on a favorite product now Tournament Cable developed and offers (from their website):

“Bucket Teaser” is the solution to a lot of the problems associated with teasers.

A special 6-Arm Stainless Steel Dredge made to fit perfectly inside the bucket for easy storage. Available 3 tier and rigged with several options including the Mann’s 10″ Ultimate Hoos, 8″ Mannhaden, Mold Crafts Tuff Hoos and Holo 3D Stick-Baits.

Link :

Also present at the seminar was Paul from JPR Rods. Paul presented a variety of Rods for Offshore which he custom develops and builds. I can’t say enough about his products and the workmanship he has put into them. Just look to any of the well known Charters and you’ll see his custom rods aboard.

A while back I went to a rod builders class and it was there that I first met Paul. He is an easy to talk to person who takes the time to really educated you on the craftsmanship of rod building. I often catch up with him a different fishing seminars, shows, etc. He is always willing to talk as is his family who usually accompanies him.

On this occasion of the show we talked lengthly with regards to harness and fighting belts and the importance of  having a good one.

You can find Paul on his website here:

Capt John of Caveman Sportfishing was also at the seminar going over deploying planers in your spread.  He shares his knowledge and many fascinating adventures fishing with his audience. If you’re looking for a great Tuna Charter out of Cape May NJ please check out his web site:

I am sure there are things I failed to mention, the day was packed with information and many great stories shared. I am thankful to have the opportunity to spend a day around such knowledgeable fishermen. Now it’s time to keep watching the video’s, practicing and putting it into action.

The season is upon us…. some of us have even got out in on the Tuna bite already…. which gets me excited reading the reports with hope of a great a start to this year…..

May you all be safe.

You can waste a whole lifetime— Trying to be What you think is expected of you ….

But you’ll never be free

May as well go fishing”- Chris Rea

This morning I was thinking back to my first time out for tuna. I had no idea what to expect yet it fulfilled everything I had imagined. People said… it will become addicting. It’s an adrenaline rush to experience.I understand why people travel a great distance to have a lifelong dream of reeling in a tuna become a reality.

I was/am still so naive about Salt-water Offshore fishing. I don’t fit into a specific place there. Fishing to me is such a spiritual experience on so many levels. At the height of reeling in a fish it’s everything you feel inside-held in now pouring out into each crank on the reel. When you see color it’s the determination within you to complete the task and be personally rewarded. As the fish hits the deck it’s the emotion of accomplishment. Then almost a calmness as you experience a goal within yourself, sometimes the one you never knew or imagine you could complete. Then there are times letting that fish go unleashes things you also need to personally let go of.

Every fishing trip I embark upon I enter with the thought of experience.  Because through each and every encounter on the water it brings me to the place I love the most.

Offshore is where I find answers, let things go, experience life unpolluted by the things that make life complicated. I feel challenged there, happy and content, satisfied upon return. In my everyday life there is never a day that passes that I don’t let my mind slip away to thoughts of being on the water…

The fish… and the report


Leaving the dock in the dark I experienced my first “on the water” meteor shower, which was nothing short of spectacular. I never want to take more… maybe it’s because of some of the things I have been through in life-the logic was experiencing this alone was just amazing… anything else I am just humbled by.

We ran out in some long period 4 foot swell and arrived on the fishing grounds around 6am. We began to troll a simple spread of blue/white and pink/white islanders on in front of horse ballyhoo.  About an hour on the troll we had a run off on a blue/white islander-ballyhoo…. it was then the Capt said… fish on looked at me and I took the rod and the battle began. The fish came to the boat pretty quickly but that last 40 feet were a bear … Finally the fish came within gaff distance and the capt dropped the gaff in on the first shot.. in came a beautiful 50″ Bluefin tuna.. my first ever…I don’t think for one second I took my eye off  such an amazing powerhouse.  Life changed that day at that moment.

that day forever etched in my memory